My Why

Why  lose weight now?  Why change my lifestyle now?  I suppose the truest reason is  I don’t feel like  the woman who stares back at me in the mirror.  I want to have more energy for life, for love, for my future kids,  for  my demanding job, to keep up  with my younger, thinner  husband and to accomplish new activities.  I want to  feel comfortable in a subway seat, or the crowded Long Island Railroad.  I want to  feel  good  naked.  I want to wear whatever I please without feeling too fat  for this outfit.  I want walk  up the stairs at  work without needing to stop at the landing to catch my breath. I want to  feel more rested.  I want a single chin in pictures.  I  want to  see my collar bones again.  I want to  wear a single digit  dress size.  I want  to shop in  New York and Company again.  I want wear high heels again.  I want  to have  boots that  fit my  calf.  I want to  buy bras from a non specialty bra store.  I want to be able to  run a 5K.  I want to learn to  jump rope, swim and ride a bike.  I want be more  physically active.  I want to increase my mental strength.  I want to  keep my sugar levels in a normal range.  I want to  have a healthy heart.  I want to no longer have sleep apnea. I want to  be stronger.  I want to  gain muscle.  I want to eat tasty and  healthy meals.  I want to  learn to relax without food.  I want to be to plank, do  yoga poses, see my feet and be proud of my reflection all the time.  I want to  have the optimal body to  get pregnant without any complications due to being overweight.   I want  to learn to live an active  healthy lifestyle.   I want to  get at least 60,000 steps in a week.  I want to be able to dance all night again.  I want to  walk around the city without getting tired.  I want to  run  for a train without being winded.  I want to  find other satisfying activities that have nothing to do with eating.  I want to feel sexier and more confident.  Mostly I  want  my outside to  match the person  I am inside.  I will believe in myself this  time even when it gets  hard I will keep  going because this is  just for today but it  is  forever.  This  is  my new beginning  to be healthy, happy and a  hottie.  

A dark tiled room as a background

So how will this  work this time?

I am keeping my mind in the game.  I am  moving more and making healthier choices.  I am attending my weight watchers meetings weekly. I am  eating more vegetables, drinking more water and  getting more sleep.  I am reducing my stress.  I am  holding myself accountable.  I am  not  letting a slip up become a  fall  down.  I am  measuring my success by the way feel, the my clothes fit, how I feel in my clothes,  how my energy is, what types of exercises I can complete and lastly but not definitively what the scale says.  I will take  monthly measurements.  I will take  monthly progress pictures.  I am planning meals, eating breakfast and  I am  bringing lunch to work.   I  am exercising at least 3 times a week.  I am also  strength training.  I am  walking at least a mile everyday.   This is  my plan  for now.   I will track my food as well.  Most of all I will believe in myself and  I will  keep going no matter what.  This is my time  to  be all I  believe I can be.  I  am celebrating the small victories.  I am correcting the setbacks.  I am  only doing  activities I  feel  I can  maintain  for a lifetime  not  just while  losing weight.  Of course I am  doing my journal, blogging and vlogging.